我是这样度过每一天
----向死而生-----
超越思考 之九
【原文】
When you don’t cover up the world with words and labels, a sense of the miraculous returns to you life that was lost a long time ago when humanity, instead of using thought, became possessed by thought. A depth returns to your life. Things regain their newness, their freshness. And the greatest miracle is the experiencing of your essential self as prior to any words, thoughts, mental labels, and images. For this to happen, you need to disentangle your sense of I, of Beingness, from all the things it has become mixed up with, that is to say, identified with.
【译文】
人们失去对奇迹的感知能力已久。当人性不能驾驭思考，反而被思考所占有那时起，这种感知就消失了。
如果你不用词语或者标签来四处标记这个世界，奇迹就会重返你的生活。深刻感也会重返你的生活。事物保持崭新与鲜活。所有奇迹中做独特的，就是对本质的自我的全新经验。这经验先于任何词语，思考，思维标签或者形象。要想达到这个全新境界，你必须将你对自我和对存在的感知从与他们交织在一起的纷繁复杂的事物中清理出来。换句话说，要用心甄选。
【心得】
在输入这一段的时候，忽然想起笛卡尔的“我思故我在”这句哲学名言。我似乎从来也没有认真想过这句话真正含义是什么。于是我搜索了一下，看到了这篇文章。豁然开朗。笛卡尔认为纯理性的思考/怀疑是判断真理的标准。而进行怀疑和思考的先觉条件必定是有一个思考者。换句话说，就是我思故我在。不是说思考决定了人的存在，而是因为看到了思考这个行为，则可以推知有个思考者存在。
我在翻译的这些《超越思考》系列文字，是让人们作为思考者的同时要觉知自己的思考。思考并不决定我们是谁，而作为思考者，我们不但对自己的思考有一个感知，而且可以进一步的对其采取行动——作者在这里推崇的行动只是关照与关注。
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超越思考 之八
【原文】
Neither concept or mathematical formulae can explain the infinite. No thought can encapsulate the vastness of the totailiy. Reality is a unified whole, but thought cuts it up into fragments. This gives rise to fundamental misperceptions, for example, that there are separate things and events, or that this is the cause of that. Every thought implies a perspective , and every perspective, by its very nature, implies limitation, which ultimately means that it is not true, at least not absolutely. Only the whole is true, but the whole cannot be spoken or thought. Seen from beyond the limitations of thinking and therefore incomprehensible to the human mind, everything is happening now. All that ever has been or will be is now, outside of time, which is a mental construct.
【译文】
没有概念或者公式能阐明“无穷”，也没有什么思想可以涵盖宇宙整体的广袤。现实是联合的统一体。思想只会将其分割。分割的结果是造成种种的根本性误解：比如事物可以独立存在，或这件事是那件事的原因。每个想法背后都有一种观点，而每种观点本质上意味着有限。这些有限的观点不是真理，至少不是绝对真理。只有完整性是真理，这一真理无法言传也不能思辨。超越了思想的界限，站在无法为人类思维所理解的角度来看，所有的事物只在当下①。那些在当下之外的曾经的存在的和未来的事物，只不过是心理观念罢了。
【心得】
我这里不明白的是，作者一直在强调完整性，一直强调思考会割裂完整性，而在这里他却给事件打上了时间标签，写上了当下，过去和未来。
按照他的观点，过去和未来的事物，是非存在的，没有的。过去的已经消失，未来的仍未出现。真正的存在的，是互相联系的宇宙统一体，且只存于当下。可是，若无过去和未来，那么这两个词为什么会在人的语言中出现的呢？也许他会说过去和未来乃思维的产物，是幻想吧。
很想了解作者怎样看待并阐述时间在这个统一世界里有怎样的意义。
【注释】
①作者有一本非常有名的书《the power of now》，中文译名是《当下的力量》。同已经发表的书保持一致性，这里把Now 翻译成“当下”。
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超越思考 之七
【原文】
See if you can catch, that is to say, notice, the voice in the head, perhaps in the very moment it complains about something, and recognize it for what it is: the voice of the ego, no more than a conditioned mind-pattern, a thought. Whenever you notice that voice, you will also realize that you are not the voice, but the one who is ware of it.
In fact, you are the awareness that is aware of the voice. In the background, there is the awareness. In the foreground, there is the voice, the thinker. In this way you are becoming free of the ego, free of the unobserved mind.
【译文】
尝试一下你是否能抓住，或者说注意到，“头脑中的声音”，当它正抱怨什么的时候抓个正着。认清它的本性：它是自我的声音，一个惯性思维模式，仅此而已。当你抓住它，你便能意识到“你”并非那个声音，而是注意到它的那个人。
事实上，你是觉察到这个声音的意识。那声音作为思考者在台前亮相，意识则作为观察这在台后监控。认识到这点，你便从自我中解放，从（之前）没有受到监控的思维中获得自由。
【评论】
人不仅能思考，而且还能意识到自己思考。人不仅有认知世界的能力，而且还有认知自己的认知的能力。后者，在心理学中被称为元认知。
元认知使得人类能够认识，掌握并控制自己的思想。这是人类比大多数动物先进的地方。拥有这一能力，人类对外部世界的反应就不再是简单的条件反射。认识到人可以主宰自己的思想和行动，我们就赋予了自己极大的力量。这种力量，能带领我们排除内在或外在的干扰，达到平和。
可悲的是，大多数人并不运用自己的能力来观察自己的思维，人们让思维掌控自己，根据思维采取行动。思维经常会失去自我纠错能力，引领人们的行为进入迷雾与歧途。只有经常认识并检查自己的思维，才能能让自己脱离思维的藩篱，更加自由的认识世界，认识自己。
认识自己的思维，可以通过自省和冥想，成为观察者。
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CVS and RiteAid shopping planner worksheet
2010-08-09QingyangI always take a shopping list with me to the CVS and RiteAid store to remind me what to buy and how much I am I am going to save to play the drugstore game. That’s a great habit I must say. But I want to know more than what items should I put in the cart, like how much the total price is before and after I use any coupon, how much can I save using coupon, how should I pay the subtotal, that is to say, how much should I pay by ECB (UPR for RiteAid) and cash, and how much will I earn through their program. Of course I will know all after I check out. But knowing these before I head to the cashier will be ideal. It will help me to make better decision. A planner will be useful in this case.
I was about to make one from scratch when I found this planner for CVS from http://bargainbriana.com. This planner is an Excel file. What you need to do is just entering the price of the item you want to buy, the value of coupons and the ECBs. The spreadsheet calculates everything for you: You will know instantly how much you need to pay, how much you are going to save or earn. It’s so great. But do not download it yet, cause I have more for you.
Based on the planner for CVS, I made one for RiteAid. Again, it will calculate everything for you before your RiteAid trip. I put the two worksheet in the same Excel file. If you only do CVS and RiteAid, you can just keep the one you need and delete the other one. And if you do both drugstores like me, you will find it so useful. I enter the information about the items I will buy in the spreadsheet and then print it out to bring it to the store as a shopping list. If I end up buying more or less than what I planned, I edit the exit file when I am back from the shopping trip to reflect what was really done, and then save the file as a new name to document the what I did. It’s good for both planning and tracking my spending.
OK, enough talking. you can download it here.
One more thing, when calculate the sale tax, I use 7.00% tax rate. If you have items with different tax rate, the result will not be accurate. The difference will not be significant though. Just a heads up.
Enjoy! Let me know what you think about it.
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Drugstore trips on 8.6 and 8.7
2010-08-08QingyangThis week I visited CVS twice on 8/6 and 8/7.
The first time I got Colgate toothpaste, Gillette razor and two Sobe Life water ($16 tag price), used $6.75 coupon and $7.99 ECB. Paid 0.98 out of pocket and got 7.00 ECB.
Then I found out I was about to be out of Vitamin C. I found out CVS has Ester-C BOGO and I had 2 $3/1 coupons. I just cannot miss this deal. So came the second trip to CVS. This time I got 2 bottles of Ester-C and another Colgate toothpaste ($24.57 tag price), used $6 coupon and $8 ECB. Paid $0.74 out of pocket and got another $2 ECB to roll next week.
So, two trips to CVS, got $40.58 worth of product. Paid $1.72 out of pocket.
Good deal!
The trip to Rite Aid was also fun except that I forgot to spend my UPRs. Have to spend them next week.
At Rite Aid, I got $38.45 worth of product, used $15.25 coupons, paid $20.89 out of pocket and earned 6.55 UPRs + $10.99 SCR.
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超越思考 之六
【原文】
Choose an object lose to you —— a pen, a chair, a cup, a plant—— and explore it visually, that is to say, look at it with great interest, almost curiously. Avoid any objects with strong personal associations that remind you of the past, such as where you bought it, who gave it to you, and so on. Also avoid anything that has writing on it such as a book or a bottle. It would stimulate thought. Without staining, relaxed but alert, give your complete attention to the object, every detail of it. If thoughts arise, don’t get involved in them. It is not the thoughts you are interested in, but the act of perception itself. Can you take the thinking out of the perceiving? can you look without the voice in your head commenting, drawing conclusions, comparing, or trying to figure something out? After a couple of minutes or so, let your gaze wander around the room or wherever your are, your alert attention lighting up each thing that it rests upon.
Then, listen to any sounds that may be present. Listen to them in the same way as you looked at the things around you. Some sounds may be natural —— water, wind, birds——while others are man-made. Some may be pleasant, others unpleasant. However, don’t differentiate between good and bad. Allow each sound to be as it is, without interpretation. Here too, relaxed but alert attention is the key.
When we perceive without interpreting or mental labelling, which means without adding thought to our perceptions, we can still sense the deeper connectedness underneath our perception of seemingly separate things.
【译文】
在你周围选一件物品——可以是笔，椅子，水杯或者盆栽——仔细观察一下。带着极大的兴趣甚至是好奇来观察。不要选那些待遇个人感情的物品，它们能勾起你旧时回忆，比如你是从哪里买的啦，是谁送给你的啦等等。也不要选那些有字的物品，比如书或者瓶子——字能引发思考。不要把玩，把全部的注意都投放在这个物品上，不放过每一个细节。放松但保持警觉。如果有念头或想法出现，不要管它们。你需要关心的不是想法，而只是观察。你能把想法从观察中剔除么？你能只是看而不让头脑里的声音评判，比对，下结论或者试图理解它么？这样过几分钟，让你的视线在你的周围漂移一会儿。你的警觉的注意就会使每一件进入视线的物品都鲜活起来。
然后，听一下周围的声音。用你观察周围物品的同样方式来倾听，继续保持放松且警觉的注意。有些是自然的声响——水流，风动，鸟鸣，有些则是人类活动的声响。有些悦耳，有些难听。但，请不要区分好坏，也不要试图解释。体验每种声音的原汁原味。①
当我们只是接收周围环境而不对其进行解释或者分类，也就是说不对我们的感知觉赋予想法的时候，我们仍然察觉到那些貌似分离的知觉之间的深层联系。
【评论】
通常，人们是通过思维来了解一件事物的，通过把事物分类，与其他事物类比等等方式。这里，我们遇到了另外一种说法，即便是没有思维的参与，不对事物进行思考辨别，而只是简单的观察与感受，事物之间的紧密联系一样会显现出来。不进行思考的观察才是更直接的了解世界的方式。思考会让我们忽略很多细节。而没有了细节变成了头脑中的概念的事物，离真实相差很远。
【注释】
① 这段我调整了原文语序。不然，怎么读也不通畅。
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超越思考 之五
【原文】
This is most people’s reality: As soon as something is perceived, it is named, interpreted, compared with something else, liked, disliked or called good or bad by the phantom self, the ego. They are imprisoned in thought forms, in object consciousness。
You do not awaken spiritually until the compulsive and unconscious naming cease, or at least you become aware of it and thus are able to observe it as it happens. It is through this constant naming that the ego remains in place as the unobserved mind. Whenever it ceases and even when you just become aware of it, there is inner space, and you are not possessed by the mind any more.
【译文】
大多数人只要观察到点儿什么，那虚幻的自我就要开始对其命名，解释，与已知事物比对；还要表示喜欢或厌恶，将其打上“好”或“坏”的标签，最终将它以思维的形式囚禁在主观的意识当中。
这种强迫症似的无意识的命名行为不停止，你就无法清醒，充满灵性。你至少得意识到到这一行为，才能关照它的发生。自我（ego）通过不断的给事物命名才得以不被观察，并在心智中存有一席之地。当命名停止，或者当人们注意到这一行为时，内在空间才开始形成，你也将不再被心智所掌控。
【评论】
当人的注意力在外在世界，只能被外在世界的纷繁浮躁所俘虏，征服。心智被扰乱。只有通过对内的观察，才能使得内心平静下来，厘清各种头绪，并获得掌控力。
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超越思考 之四
【原文】：
When we go into a forest that has not been interfered with by man, our thinking mind will see only disorder and chaos all around us. It won’t event be able to differentiate between life (good) and death (bad) anymore since everywhere new life grows out of rotting and decaying matter. Only if we are still enough inside and the noise of thinking subsides can we become aware that there is a hidden harmony here, a sacredness, a higher order in which everything has its perfect place and could not be other than what it is and the way it is.
The mind is more comfortable in a landscaped park because it has been planned through thought; it has not grown organically. There is an order here that the mind can understand. In the forest, there is an incomprehensible order that to the mind looks like chaos. It is beyond the mental categories of good and bad. You cannot understand it through thought, but you can sense it when you let go of thought, become still and alert, and don’t try to understand or explain. Only then can you be aware of the sacredness of the forest. As soon as you sense that hidden Harmony, that sacredness, you realize you are not separate from it, and when you realize that, you become a conscious participant in it. In this way, nature can help you become realigned with the wholeness of life.
【译文】：
当我们走进人迹罕至的原始森林，那“善于思考”的头脑能看到的，只会是周遭的无序与混乱。甚至，它都无法从中区分哪些是活的（好的），哪些是者死的（坏的）。随处可见的是新生命在腐烂衰败的物质上蓬勃生长。只有当思考的喧嚣平息，心如止水时，我们才能觉察那内在和谐，神圣及一种更为高级的秩序。所有的事物都处于这一高级的秩序当中，它们在其中各自拥有完美位置。无论其存在方式或者其本身，都无可取代。
在风景如画的园林中，头脑才会怡然舒泰。这是因为园林经思考的有计划的修饰，不再是自然生长的了。经过修饰的秩序是头脑可以理解的。而森林中的高级秩序对于头脑来说则是混乱一片，超越了“好”或“坏”的心灵分类。你无法通过思考来了解它。但是，当你放弃思考，变得心如止水，心境澄莹时，你就能感觉到它。不要试图去理解或者解释——只有如此才能觉知森林的神圣。当感受到它的内在和谐与神圣，你就会认识到你与它并非分离开的。认识到这一点，你就成了这和谐与神圣的参与者。通过这中方是，大自然还能过帮你与生命的完整性对接。
【评论】：
强调感性与直觉的重要性。
我们的大脑，我们那么复杂的大脑，喜欢的却是简化的世界。它不停的在给感知到的各种事物进行类比，归类。原因呢，我想是这样的：相对于整个世界来说，我们的大脑实在是过于简单，无法胜任处理太多的信息。看看人们所做的事情吧，发现新事物，先是命名，之后就是按照它的属性与其他事物的特性做对比，以期将其归为某一类。这是简化。我们把屋子，社区，城市等等收拾的井井有条，是简化。如果不简化，我们的大脑过不了多久就得出问题。有些人的depression说不定就是因为无法胜任处理这么多的信息造成的。
然而，经过简化的自然界，已然不是自然。经过思考过滤的世界，也不是真实的图景。对比人类的简单理解与自然的复杂本身，我们就无法不由衷地感到自然的伟大。
我们，也是自然的造物。遵循自然的法则。与自然联系的方法，也许可以不通过思维。通过感官直接与外部世界相连。
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My wallet, lost then found
What happened to me today is worth noting (20100802).Today, I got my parking permit for the new semester. I chose the permit for the parking lot near the psychology building out of the the one near my apartment. This way, I can not park my car near my apartment during work days so that I will “have to” drive to work every day. This is my strategy to beat my laziness of staying home all the time.
The strategy is not perfect.
Today, I had an experiment to run at another building on campus which is 5-minute walking distance to my apartment. Because of the new permit, I can not walk there. In stead, I had to drive to the department first, park there and then take a bus back to the building. I was running a little bit late. Plus, doing this kind of commuting on such a hot day was not fun at all. So, as you already know from the title, my wallet was lost on the bus.
It’s at the door of the building for my experiment and I cannot find my door card to get in that I found out my wallet was missing. I did not go back to look for the wallet right away because the experiment was about to start. My friend Jason let me in so I got everything setup on time. After that, I called the bus service and they told me the bus driver did not see a wallet. Kim was talking about her experience when her daughters purse was stolen and gave me some advice. And mentioned there are more non-student on the city bus. I knew she was trying to help but I felt upset at that point thinking all the things I would have to do in case the wallet could not be found. Calling banks, credit card companies and all the offices to cancel my cards, to get a replacement ID… all that kind stuff made my head spin. Ahh, too much to think about. I just could not concentrate on work anymore. Thank God that William was there to help me with the scan.
Then I tried to calm myself down and told myself that panic or upset was my natural response in this circumstance. But it’s not helping at all to be panic or upset. I also told myself that my wallet might or might not be found, but I do not know what will happen at the end of the day. Other than assuming it’s gone and being upset, it’s better to believe it will come back and feel at least calm and normal if not happy about the whole thing.
That’s what I did since then. I wrote to the city bus asked them to keep an eye on the wallet. Then, I changed my Gchat status to “come back, my wallet”. After that, I acted just as everything was fine. I watched YouTube videos with my colleagues and laughed with them, I executed some of the program for experiment presentation. I printed out my girlfriend's letter and read them.
When the missing wallet came to my mind, I told myself only one thing: “It will come back”.
When the experiment was done, I did not even rush out. I helped packing everything up and put them to the right place. I take time to clean everything behind me, make sure I will not lose anything else. I said goodbye to my friends and then headed out.
You know what happened?
As soon as I walked out the building and laid my eyes on the road, I saw the bus passing by. I followed it to the bus stop, hopped on and asked the driver if he saw a wallet. The gentleman recognized me and then handed my wallet to me. Can you imagine how happy and exciting I was? I was so happy and even forgot to ask the gentlemen's name. My friend Lauren saw this and cheered for me! Yay!
So that’s the story of my wallet. I am so happy everything works out this way. I wrote an email to the bus service to express my appreciation. To all my friends who wished me good luck: Thank you all!.
This made my day :)
So I wrote it down(did not do proof reading) to let all you know I am thankful, for all the things happen to me.
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